I
AM SICK
Im
not STUPID Or MENTALLY Disabled
I’m
NOT CRAZY.
It’s
not STRESS, It’s not in my head.
I’m
not causing this myself.
I’m
not making it up.
I’m
LEARNING about myself
every
day.
How
well I deal
with this sickness.
I
can still do things for myself.
I
Like my
INDEPENDENCE
BUT
SOMETIMES
I MAY NEED YOUR HELP
Don’t
take that as weakness or that I’m giving up.
I’m
TRYING The BEST I CAN.
We all need a
little boost from time to time,
LEND A HAND.
You
NEVER know How Much it could MEAN
…
Me.. HONESTLY,
I
had Mixed Connective Tissue Disease
And
often being
attack by RAYNAUD PHENOMENON
Because…
I
can’t stand with
COLD or LOWER TEMPERATURE
At
some place
ESPECIALLY
With
the place
that have air conditioner.
Yet, STILL
I
put my effort
To
find another jobs out there
To
become a
ladies who have
my own careers
As
well as other
normal girl out there
Every question
start with smoothly
UNTIL
When it turn to employer ask me
“Do
you have any problem
disease?”
(After a long silence)
I
ANSWERED
YES!
Honestly, I can’t stand with cold or low temperature.
The Employer reaction à “…”
As expected
My
interview
was END
…
Okay,
It’s not my first TIME
I’ve being rejected by some employers
But
each time
I’ve been
rejected by those
unknown/unsurely reaction
I just
can put my best smile
towards them
And
say
“Thanks
for listen”
And
I slowly get up and walk to the door
Also
at the same
time
Big SCARs appears in
my heart
No
ONE knows what I feel in that time
But
im sure
The employer feels pity
towards me
I
know that
Because everyone look at me as
a patient
NOT as PEOPLE
As
I arrived at home
I
straight go to the kitchen
And
put a water to the
glass
As
I think if i can envelop
my scar
Which
is now is bleeding inside of my heart
And
suddenly my mother
sit in front of me
“How
your Interview?”
“As
usual, after the
DISEASE line,
they full stop.”
“…”
I
know that looks for my mom
Then I try to stand up and straight to my bedroom.
Lying
there…
While my tears
start rolling down…
Looking
straight to the white ceiling
And
ask to my Creator
Is that
really bad to become someone who had UNCURE
Disease?
Are people doesn’t look for a PATIENT like me?
I
know, I Am A Patient.
I Am SICK
But
still,
I
want to TRY TO BEING
A HUMAN
I mean NORMAL HUMAN
who
still can HELP
ANOTHER PEOPLE out there
with
any job
AS LONG AS I CAN DO with my BEST.
I
don’t need a PITY
I
don’t need a SYMPATHY.
What
I need…
PLEASE
Give Me Also Some
OPPORTUNITY
…
YES. I Am A SICK GIRL
But REMEMBER
I’M STILL A PEOPLE
JUST LIKE AS YOU ARE
JUST LIKE AS YOU ARE
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