My friends Gisha who studies majoring in Health
Profession in Washington help me to make a research about my disease. With
honestly she said I was attacked by 2 kind of disease at the same time. From
outside appearance, she told me I am an osteoporosis patience, something which
close to scelorosis. That’s mean I’ve a weak muscles, once got into broken
bones and also have less red-blood cell but more into white-blood cell. That’s
because I can’t stand at the lower temperature room/laboratory.
Then, she told me, why I’m always babble say to her I am
so lonely girl. These topic have little bit connection about my second disease.
And also, she really frightened me till I burst into tears.
Skizofrenia Chronic. I had Skizofrenia chronic. What?!
She said I am one of the mean patience? She means I am crazy! It’s really hard
to listen about her explanation at first but at the same time I proud to meet
her not only as my far-pal but also as my private doctor that I’ve ever meet in
my life. At first we just friend, but I didn’t realize why I told her
everything about what happen in single day of my life. I didn’t realize at all why I told her
everything about me but I think she is a good listener. She is my real friend
who see me on detail although we’re so
far from each other. She always calm me and said “you’re not crazy, you’re the
perfect girl of your imperfection that I’ve ever meet”. I’m still hold her
words in my mind until this day. She
always told me whenever I got some trouble, thinking if I want to hurt myself,
please thinking there a lot of people who still love me. It’s better if I took
a pray and watch something that can make me laugh or read some quote that can
make me get a positive thinking. She know how many time I said to her I am
lonely but she told me back If I need someone to talk, just think of her
because she always beside me. Watching me what just I feel then. See? How warm
this girl towards me. She really made me calm.
Without her, maybe I’ll keep seeing myself as a really
bad Skizofrenia patience. I know who I am but because of her, she teach me
don’t look too much our weaknesses, but try to fight our weakness, because it’s
the only way we can found our strongest.
In the past, I’ve known as osteoporosis patience who
always keep my distance from everyone till I lose one by one of friends. Second
time I most give up when I know I had Skizofrenia. I almost give up till I’m
always see myself as a lonely girl who doesn’t keep on touch with everyone
around me. That’s what Gisha told me, Skizofrenia patience like to be alone and
doesn’t make any sociality, because they really like to be alone.
But those far, I meet so many people since I try to be
independent girl who stay away from my parents and my mom that I love very
much. I use to make Arashi’s quote as my inspiration, her words as my
confident-self and pray to Allah SWT to keep an eye of me whenever I went to.
Although it takes just half years, it feels like 10 years of a great experience
and I learn so many thing, learn how to
see a people to be with or not. I finally found myself, I found something that
made me so happy, I learn about LIFE.
Since then, I try to accept I am an osteoporosis
patience, I try to accept how bad Skizofrenia chronic attacked myself.
Then now, I’m always appreciated it because this is a
beautiful thing Allah give to me. Each time I recalled about how bad my
condition on past, that’s it, with some of people who came to my life and give
me self-confident how to face this world without ashamed with our self… really,
I want to thanks to them a hundred thousand, words Alhamdullillah never miss
whisper out of my mouth to say how glad I am to meet this kind of people and
Insyallah, one day I’ll meet Gisha and Arashi. Because they’re really took an
importance roles how to make me still able to smile until this day.
Finally, thanks to God. It’s okay for everyone to make a
thought and see me as an unperfect girl. Deeply, through the bottom of my
heart, to the people who see this imperfection… I just want to say one thing,
God, u creates such a beautiful things that u wears on
me, Alhamdulillah… you make me special and as long as I live, I proud to be who
I am.
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